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A letter to 2010

Feb. 7th, 2010 | 01:14 am
mood: hopeful hopeful

Oh, I just don't know how to feel about you so far 2010. You have started off on a note that is not so great. Worst of all, you've been present for the loss of one of my best friends (for those of you who didn't know, Chanee passed away from cancer on January 23, 2010). On the other hand, you have been there for my boyfriend arriving back safely from Iraq, and in just one week you will see us reunited and I will finally get some action after waiting SIX MONTHS.

Something about 2009 was really good for me. Honestly, I think it was finally moving out of Fayetteville, and moving to St Louis, a place I have liked for awhile. I have loved living here. I have made new friends and had a lot of fun and I am certainly not looking forward to leaving. I will be really happy to be with Harrison again, but I just wish that could be achieved without returning to Fayetteville.

2010, in just two weeks you will bring me back to the place that I have spent far too much time throughout my life and have grown to hate. Will you bring in me a renewed love for it upon my return? Will being reunited with lifetime friends and with family change my opinion of a place that I have grown so tired of? I certainly hope so 2010 or I will be very disappointed in you!

I wonder what changes you will bring to me. Hopefully you will help me find a career, or at least put me well on track to filling my bank account enough that I can someday travel the world and have my own movie theatre in my home (reasonable aspirations, I'd say). At least help me to be on the path to getting into a good grad school and somehow benefiting my future. I don't think that is too much to ask, 2010.

If you are one of the last years we all have left (12/21/2012), hopefully you can make yourself a good one, or at least one that makes me feel efficient and accomplished. Maybe you can help me to better myself.

It has been good and bad being acquainted with you so far, and I can only hope that ours is a relationship that will benefit and prosper throughout the coming months.

By the way, can you just skip Christmas this year?


Your pal


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Crazy night...

Oct. 16th, 2009 | 05:33 am

I just had the most interesting/strangest night I've had since moving here: It began innocently with a drive out to a "haunted" place outside of St Louis known as "Zombie Road" (google it). Next we encountered a "No Trespassing" sign implying a maximum 1000 dollar fine and after a quick peak of the creepy road and after hearing stories of people visiting being arrested, decided not to stay. On the way home we hit a deer and totaled the mini-van we were driving in. Fellow passengers checked the deers pulse as the poor deer died... We waited for awhile for a cop and a tow truck and there was only room for the driver to get a ride home. Afterwards we had to hike about a half mile through the mud and wait for a cab in the cold at a gas station for about 45 mins to an hour. During this time I discovered "rap snacks" and each flavor has a different rapper on it. I tried "Barbequein with my Honey" by Lil Romeo with a message on the back telling me to "Stay In School." Finally the cab picked us up and I just now got home and I am extremely relieved that I do not have to work tomorrow!

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Apr. 29th, 2009 | 12:21 pm

I got a DUI last night. I'm so fucked right now. Also, my boyfriend may possibly break up with me because of it. So I will be homeless and unable to drive. Yay!

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Bitches ain't shit

Feb. 14th, 2009 | 02:41 am

So I found out that Ricky's ex girlfriend Erin talks shit about me all the time. It's weird to hear that someone does that, because I don't really see why anyone would talk about me like that. Ricky said that her and this gay guy that looks like a girl that she's friends with would say really mean things about me all the time. He said that they'd say stuff about Kat a lot too. This actually really bothers me because I was always nice to her and went out of my way to talk to her. I want to do something to her to get her back, or at least say something mean to her, but i don't really want to get involved with stupid high school bs or to mess around with some stupid immature high school dropout, who doesn't understand that you're supposed to leave the drama once you're out of school. Oh, and she added me on myspace too. I'm considering adding her, saying something really sarcastic and passive aggressive, and then deleting her, but that seems like a huge waste of my time. Idk, I'm just hoping something bad happens to her as a result of karma for always saying such mean things about people. This also makes me want to be even more careful about talking bad about people (even though I already try not to) because even though I didn't really like her anyways, it still kind of hurts my feelings that someone found it important enough to spend their time saying mean things about me. Especially when I had never done anything at all to them, or anything for them to feel that way or to be such bitches. I haven't even met the guy she's friends with!

Idk, it's just lame that this bothers me and it's lame that someone would say this stuff about me.

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Feb. 8th, 2009 | 07:40 pm

So for the past 3 days, I haven't really been able to keep any food down. Friday I went to work in the morning and started feeling really nauseated at work. They let me go home but I had 2 tables that kept adding people and decided to sit forever. Finally I was able to leave but I had to pull over in the parking lot on the way home to throw up, even though all i'd eaten that day was a couple pieces of celery dipped in ranch. After that, I ended up throwing up at least 12 times on friday, and I just didn't want to move, I felt so terrible. I tried to eat things like bread or sipping on some chx soup, but I'd just throw it up right afterwards... including the pepto bismol I took. That actually tasted pretty good coming up, hah Yesterday I felt a little better, but I called out of work just in case anyways, and I ate some toast and was OK, but I tried eating spaghetti Os and a few hours later I puked that up, sooo got someone to pick up my shift today, and finally ate a little.

Well anyways, I'm broke as fuck now from missing work, and getting my hours cut. Also, Harrison's still waiting to hear when he'll be deploying so I'm trying to wait to find out when that is before I go to Seattle. But as of right now I don't have enough money to go, but I'll be trying to work a lot and we'll see.

But yeah, I don't really feel like eating anymore, hopefully this will help me lose some weight, lol.

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Jan. 26th, 2009 | 03:51 pm

I don't know what the hell to do. I need to figure it out soon though because my time is running out.

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Jan. 24th, 2009 | 06:11 pm

I think Imma get my hurr cut short. Any suggestions?? Hopefully Tasha will be doing it when and if I go to Seattle!

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New Years Resolution

Dec. 22nd, 2008 | 03:05 am

Hmm, I need to do a lot of things and if all goes well, 2009 will be WAY better than 2008. 2008 was good in some ways and a total waste of a year in others.

Let's see, what do I need to do?

1. Get the hell out of Fayetteville (biggest problem there is leaving Harrison behind and leaving for a good reason)

2. Get on the right path to do something with my life

3. Start working out regularly and eating better

4. Cut down on drinking and stop smoking

5. Stay organized and clean

6. Stop being so fucking lazy!!!

7. Save and make lots of money

8. Travel as much as possible

9. Become more responsible without sacrificing fun

10. Make changes in my life that will help me to be satisfied with it.

I probably have like 50million more things I can say. I feel like I'm not doing anything with my life and I'm wasting my degree. 2008 has been a year in limbo in which I haven't done much of ANYTHING to begin to do something with my life. I feel like a lazy ass loser and that I'm definitely not at the responsibility level I need to be at. In some ways it's been good though, I've had fun, made new friends, traveled some, and especially had the experience of living with a boyfriend, which is surprisingly way better than I though. I have a million things I want to do and I know what I really need to do is focus on one thing and get to that first but I just don't completely know what I want to do yet or how to do it. I just don't know where to begin and I really need to figure things out.

I hope 2009 helps me to find myself and figure things out, because I feel kind of lost right now...

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Dec. 10th, 2008 | 01:33 am

Sonia's graduating this Saturday, and what better way to celebrate than...


Find your ugliest christmas sweater or dig one out of the trash and rock it to this super fabulous ugly christmas sweater potluck party.

It's a potluck so please bring a yummy delicious dish that will not give us food poisoning or perhaps some sort of liquid beverage that will help you to forget about the ugly sweater you're wearing.

By the way, this is a BYOE event: BRING YOUR OWN EGGNOGG!!

If all goes well there may even be an AMAZING christmas prize for the ugliest sweater!!

It's this Saturday night and call, text, or message Wendy or Sonia for DETAILS!!


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I just had a thought

Nov. 7th, 2008 | 12:16 am

I think this might be the first time in my life I'm actually proud to be American. Wow.

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